I don’t know what it is (cough everyone getting married and having babies), but lately it has really been hitting me hard that i’m single. To tell you the truth, I have been single for quite a long time, and have become accustomed to it. I have definitely dated guys, but nothing that has been serious within this past year. To be honest, I always say that i’m okay being single, and I really truly am, but would I be happier with someone else? I think so. I am generally a happy person, so it’s not to say that i’m not happy, but I just feel like something is missing.
I know everyone always says “someone will come along when you least expect it” or “when you aren’t looking someone will come along,” well, that’s crap. Sorry, it is. If you don’t put yourself out there then no one will come along. You need to be social and meet people in order to, well, meet people! It is my goal to become social when I move. I have not been the most social butterfly in the world during grad school, in fact, I really wasn’t very social until the very end when I met a great group of girls who I instantly clicked with. Sometimes I feel like grad school took three years out of my life, but I know that’s not true. Education is so important in life and I will be grateful for my degree.
Most of my friends are in relationships, which can also be hard. Of course, I am very happy for them, but it also makes me want to be in a relationship that much more. I also feel like i’d have way more fun if I was in a relationship. Lots of people that are dating, date other couples. To me, that sounds like so much fun. That’s what I want at this point in my life. I’m tired of being single!
At the same time, i’m completely content being single and am really truly happy being me. I love who I am! This can sometimes lead to being stuck in my own ways though, and that’s never a good thing. Sometimes I feel like i’ve been single for too long, but then I remember that there is a plan for everyone.
When the time is right, I am confident that the right one will “come along.” I am grateful for this time that i’ve had to learn and grow as an individual. I believe it will make me more appreciative in a relationship and in the future. Until then, i’m going to live it up!
Is this blog post one big contradiction or what? It makes sense to me though.
In other, awesome news, I PASSED MY PRAXIS EXAM! This means that I can get my license in audiology and never have to take another test! I’m SO happy!!