I am usually a very happy person who doesn’t even think twice about going to sleep. Typically every night around 10PM, I roll into bed and read blogs on my computer until about 10:30 or 10:45 and then just fall asleep. It really was that easy, until recently. You see, recently something has happened in my life that makes me over-think things in a not-so-good way. Naturally, when I went to fall asleep, my brain just would not shut off. Even when it did shut off, I would wake up during the middle of the night upset and unable to fall back asleep. For a girl who usually gets 7 to 9 hours of sleep a night, this was not normal.
Last Tuesday night, my brain never shut off, and for the first time ever, I just did not fall asleep. This made me more upset than anything, because I wanted to sleep so badly, but couldn’t. I knew something had to be done to put an end to this spell of sleeplessness. The next night, I took Robitussin Night Time. I slept for about 11 hours, and I was a happy girl. Almost every night since then, I have continued to take Robitussin Night Time. Sadly, I don’t continue to get 11 hours of sleep, but it does give me a solid 7 hours. I know I need to start weening my way off relying on this to sleep, because I don’t want to get “addicted,” but for now, I am enjoying my love/hate relationship with the disgusting 4 teaspoons a night.
Tonight, I am not going to take it and see what happens. I want my natural sleeping schedule back. The said sad situation in my life is starting to feel more like reality, and I am starting to accept it more. I can’t take Robistussin Night TIme forever, but wouldn’t it kind of be nice if I could?
There is my random thought for the day! Today I am going to study, study, study for an exam tomorrow, go for a 4-mile run, meet with my advisor for capstone, grocery shop, and meet with a therapist. I have never met with a therapist before, but I think it will be really helpful for where I am at in life right now.
Just in case you don’t know me, I really do have a wonderful life and I am a very lucky girl with lots of supportive and loving people in my life, I am just going through a rough time personally and it is really effecting me. Writing helps so much though. Thanks for listening!